be not ashamed

your dreams may change. your direction may change. your focus may change. but while you are here, you will change someone. and change is the only lasting thing in the universe. that's pretty powerful. sure, the people you have changed will change again and it may seem like the change you inspired is gone, diminished, insignificant in the face of this new change. but your change is a precursor for further change - a catalyst, even. it is forever etched into the fabric of the universe. it's like that whole newton: genious-but-wrong-and-where-would-science-be-without-him thing?

it is right for you to be here. even if you don't know what you're doing, it is still right, now.

that chronic sick feeling that's been following you around and keeping you up in the middle of the night? that's just evidence that you are an intelligent and decent creature. take solace in that, if you can. you see what's wrong, where so many are blind. you think about things, where so many are clouded. granted, it will be harder for you. because when you know better, you are obliged to do better. it becomes your responsibility. and when you don't, it plagues you.

shame is the awareness of guilt. it comes from knowing you've done something wrong. it comes from knowing what's wrong in the first place. no matter how religious or spiritual you are (and i would argue you are more spiritual than you even know - that's just how easy this Godling business comes to you), the tenet 'be not ashamed' is valuable. but ashamed is not an adjective. it is a verb. it is not a state of being, and it most certainly doesn't expect you to miraculously feel good about things you know you have done wrong. it simply means: do not go onward to do that which you know is wrong.

go onward. be not ashamed.

you know better. act accordingly.